The day 2 Js met.

Recovering

2011-04-13T18:06:00.001-07:00

I have not been writing for some time now. Reasons are, work, health and adjusting to new environment.

Have done a major surgery recently and is still recovering from the pain. Finally, I brace up the courage to have my womb remove. Yes! At least once it is removed, I tend to suffer less and it may be a prevention of having it coming back to haunt me.

Well, I would like to thank all my friends who show concerns and well wishes during my stay in hospital and after I discharged. Thank you all for your care.

Once I am better, will definetely call upon all for a meal. Thanks once again.

15 years Wedding Anniversary

2011-02-03T08:45:00.000-08:00

Time flies, it is 15 years since we got married. 15 years of ups and downs, tears and laughter.

Friends told me I was lucky happily married with 2 kids. I just tell them I work hard in the marriage.

This year, the celebration is special. Jeff brought me to Bali. For 15 years, this trip is considered our 1st honeymoon trip as well.

I really enjoy the time together during this trip and yes, love is rekindled and both of us feeling refreshed. Some picts to share.

New Year New Hopes

2011-01-17T20:19:00.000-08:00

Happy New year to all my friends. Sorry for not writing for some time. Work is busy, mood is as usual bad.

But good luck is coming my way for the new year. Finally after serious thinking, I had decided to do the right thing and yes! I tendered my resignation letter. I guess this will be the only way to relieve my stress and unhappiness.

One thing though is I feel sorry for leaving my good boss. Throughout my ordeal, he is the one behind me supporting me and help me pull through. It is kinda upsetting for me to leave him.

Nonetheless, I am happy to know him as a good boss and as a good friend. I believe friendship can still continue.

I hope the new job I am going to be will bring in new hopes and happiness for the year 2011.

Christmas mood is not there.

2010-12-20T05:36:00.001-08:00

Christmas is coming, but this year, it is not for me to enjoy and celebrate. So many plans are put off due to moving, heavy work loads. I am so tired. Even the thought of baking a Christmas fruit cake, is not workable.

Tensions in the office are there still and mood is never a happy day at all. I am simply moodless about everything, throwing my temper at the boys at time when I reach home from work at times.

My screaming and shouting at them made me guilty when I see them sleeping.

My boys, mummy is sorry and never meant anything to scold you or beat you. My Noel, mummy love you and Zachary. Mummy dont want to scold you all but hope you 2 will be good when I am home.

Senseless people at work

2010-11-30T08:02:00.000-08:00

I am disappointed in work life. People making senseless attacks and stirring unnecessary quarrels.

You must be guessing..... yes !! You are right. I got very personal attacks from the gang of 4 women again. This time still manageable but an extra person joined in the group.

She makes senseless attacks on me and best of all, she lied. She uses what I have written in my facebook and claim that she is the person I am refering to and complained to HR. Wonderful imagination she has. Call herself a devoted christian, I will spit on her face as she disgrace her religion.

Christians dont behave this way. She can lie her way out, all I can say people like her can stoop so low to take someone's good name.

End of the day, she is no saint herself. I do not say much. I sit tight upright and I have not done anything wrong I will still remain seated where I am. She is obviously showing her panic by going up to HR 1st.

Friends around the globe is showing supprt to me. I know all of my friends are shaking head to hear what happen. I have my freedom of speech and I speak my mind. I dont speak just to get into good books. This is me and I do what I feel is right.

Seriously I am here to work and not to bother about what people wear, making personal attacks.

I personally feel that senseless people like that old woman and the gang of 4 women, are a wastage to company resources. They are paid, but not doing what they supposed to do.

An insult to me made by them may be hurting, but it also makes me stronger.

I sincerely thank all my friends who share with me all my unhappiness and support me emotionally through the tough journey, without them, I would be a emotional wreck.

Grace a colleage of mine is my best mate I can cry to. She is helpful and lends me her shoulder to cry when I really break down. I sincerely thank her and her kind words.

The 2 monsters

2010-11-11T08:03:00.000-08:00

Well, life is great comfort for me after work seeing my 2 monsters!! Yeah! 2 notty boys. They add so much fun and anxiety in my life. Seeing them growing up by the day ease my stress and worries away.

Jeff is sweet. He listens to all my nagging and complaints constantly. Comfort me and yes, making me laugh. I can see that he has been trying hard to please me at time. What can I do without him?

Coming weeks are getting busy as we are moving out. Weekends are burnt to packing up stuffs and working late in the office.

Thankfully our helper is a great help. She started the packing whenever Zachary is sleeping.

Tday I took some picts of the notty boys. Just to share.

Work Work Work!!!

2010-11-10T21:24:00.000-08:00

Well, reasons for not writing in for long time is due to heavy work load. Late night back home and by the time I done with my warm shower, I am knocked out.

Thankfully, I have search for a nice place and will be shifting out soon. Weekends are burnt staying at home packing up the boxes.

Will update more on the boys.

The kids

2010-10-08T02:54:00.000-07:00

Time flies, Zachary is 16 months old and is getting smarter by the day. I have to outwit him or else, I will be lost in his games. Noel is having his exams stress. I can say, Noel makes me proud, he works hard and has been studying in his room. I feels for him, and hopes that once exams are over I will bring him and Zachary out for a short trip. A well deserve trip for the kids and me and Jeff.

A day with them makes me a blessed lady, a life time with them makes me a well love lady from God. He indeed has bless me well.

Picts of Vietnam

2010-10-08T01:55:00.000-07:00

Good Morning Vietnam!!! Just arrive at the airport.

Busy streets of Vietnam. Motorcycles everywhere.

Glorious Vietnamese food

Church of Notre Dame.

Their General Post Office. Inside with authentic phone booth.

My cosy bedroom.

Street Hawker selling carrot cake

Bottles of snake and scopion wines

Glorious food

Back from Vietnam

2010-10-08T01:46:00.000-07:00

It has been 5 days since I am back from Vietnam. Jeff is not around and I have spent nice time with the 2 boys. Noel happens to fall sick on Tuesday. He always does when Jeff is not around. Sigh!!!

Vietnam trip is tiring and rush. During the trip, it shows me the ugly side of people. Selfishness and conceited. I can tell who are the ugly selfish ones, the good and kind ones and the nosy ones.

I know and get along well with those who are the truthful and kind. We had great time and accomodate each other well. Picts can tell.

My 3 good colleages who accompany me and has made good companions throughout

I think hanging out with them make me more comfortable and feel free myself.

1 day to Vietnam.

2010-09-29T08:54:00.000-07:00

Have not been writing much as work load is high. Unhappiness in the office has been causing me alot of stress. You may be thinking , let loose and enjoy yourself for 3 day. Vietnam is fun. Eat and relax.

But honestly, I really am not looking forward to the trip at all. It happens to fall on Friday 1 October and its Children's day. Noel is not at school. He will be lonely with Zachary. For the weekends, without me, I wonder how the 3 guys will be doing. Jeff is leaving to KL on Sunday. Hence we will missed each other for the next 5 days.

If I am given a 2nd chance, I really want to stay and keep them company for the weekends. It is going to be a long tiring week.

Pray that I will be able to survive with Jeff next to me in bed.

Precious Moments

2010-08-25T09:22:00.000-07:00

I guess this is the precious moment I will treasure it greatly. A time well spent for the family is all I can hope for.

Zachary is 14 months

2010-08-25T09:16:00.000-07:00

Time flies and my baby is 14 months. He is a handful and recently he hurt himself. Falling off the sofa and hit his nose bridge on the table edge. 3 stiches is needed to have that deep hole sealed up. Poor baby. Am glad all is over now. He is getting better and he is at his usual self again.

Sleep for him is never on his mind. He still gets up at nite crying and a half hour nap in the day . When can he learn to sleep at nite? I wonders how long will that wish will be granted for me.

Unhappiness at work place

2010-08-25T09:06:00.000-07:00

Work is stressful enough, what we want is to have it done up and nice people around. But this does not happen so.

Currently I am faced with people who are untruthful and wonderfully liars. I cannot imagine where on earth they have such wonderful imaginations.Bad mouth, lies and back stabbing are all they can do. Dogs are even better than humans after this frightening episode. I rather trust a dog than a human now.

Well, one kind of rice feed the millions. (一重米养百重人). All I can say what you sow is what you reap. I only believe in retribution and hope to see it happens.

Unhappiness and Happiness

2010-08-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

人都会有自私的一面。我也不例外。不过有些人比我还自私。工作上应该要合作，人以人之间才会快乐。
我在工作上很不开心。小人很多而且每个都有心迹。这样的人只有对他们有所防备。不过我很安慰的是家里的老公很疼我。常常逗我笑。谢谢你的爱。你的关怀让我的不开心的一天都忘了。没有你，我的工作精神就没有推动力了。

加油！！！我们的日子都要开心的过。

Zachary walked.

2010-07-25T20:02:00.000-07:00

My baby Zachary is 13 months old now. Times flies and he started walking. He walked a few steps to me when I am back from work.

He started babbling and yes walked. It seems like yesterday that he was born a cute baby now is 13 months old and how he walked.

Kids are down again

2010-07-25T19:58:00.000-07:00

Zachary and Noel are down sick again. Zachary is coughing with phlegm while Noel is having gasric flu. I can't help worrying for them. Thinking of them sick makes me think will that happen when I am not around? Can Jeff really handle them?

Zach is a bad tempered baby and is a handful. After seeing the doctor, I hope they will get well fast.

Excitement & anxiety

2010-07-25T19:54:00.000-07:00

My company is organising a trip to Vietnam for our company Dinner and Dance. Initially I did not plan to go. I can't help but feeling worried for home and Jeff if I am not around. Plus it will be my 1st trip to somewhere I am unfamiliar with.

Through Jeff's encouragement, I sign up. Jeff says I should go to take a look at the different world that I always longed to see. He also asked me not to worry for the kids and him and that he will managed well.

Sweet of him to do great lengths for me. Well, I signed up and am now excited and looking forward to the trip.

To love and be love

2010-07-12T07:35:00.000-07:00

爱一个人好难, 当爱上的很深而看不到我自己伤害的我是不是很笨? 我很累不过我还是要走下去。因为我爱你爱得我无法看到我自己了。锦俊我真得好爱你。每一天的幸福就是可一和你在一起。

13 年和你走过的日子有起有落。但我们还是熬过了。要求你的爱对我真一点对我深一点这样我就很满足了。

我从来没有不爱你的一天，就算你多么的让我伤心难过我的爱一然对你那么的纯真。

Jeff, if you read this, you will know how long it takes me to write out my feelings for you. I will always treasure you and love you.

Celebrating Noel's Birthday

2010-07-11T09:21:00.000-07:00

Time flies, Noel is 8 years old now. It really seems like yesterday he was born. Well, my boy is grown up and yes sometimes he is sensible sometimes he is not.

This year due to busy work load, I did not really plan his party. Partly he is bad and misbehaves so the party was called off by Jeff. To make up for him to void his disappoitment, A simple celebration for him to make him feel comforted. Next year, if he behaves, he will eventually have a great celebration for him.

Rice noodles with egg, represent long life for the birthday person. As a mother, I do wish the best for my son too. I hope he will be healthy and long life.

Noel making his wishes.

His birthday cake. (Thanks Lawrence and Adeline)

Zachary wants a piece of the nice cake as well.

Some well spent time

2010-07-11T08:53:00.000-07:00

Been so busy with work, hardly anytime with the guys. Recently work is more relaxed for a while, and I decided to spend some time with the 3 guys. It is a time well spent to see the smile on their face.

Seeing the 2 brothers' smile really makes my worries goes away.

My 2 boys that I am always proud of.

My forever loved. My 3 guys.

Friends

2010-07-01T23:03:00.001-07:00

It has really come to my thoughts that good friends only come in a few. Past few days, days I am really unhappy. Tears been wetting my pillow at night. While reading this, you must be wondering, what happen? Yes all married couples do quarrel. Jeff and I do too.

It was so bad that it hurts me deeply. When we are angry, our actions and words hurt. Work is making me crazy and tired. We hardly talk and feelings in me is welling up. Why do we have to fight over friends manipulation? Jeff is a very trusting person. Especially with his buch of "friends".

I am greatful to have close truthful and faithful friends that is with me when I am really down and very very upset. A friend that I have just known for months is there for me when I called him to grumble and complained to about work. To think he just reached home from work and has to take my call and listen.

Another friend sacrifce her night of sleep to talk to me on the phone to comfort me when I cry to her.

My domestic worker comfort me at night with her hugs when i break down.

Anna, Ivan and Siti thank you so much for being there for me at my lowest point. I am greatful and happy to know you all. I hope when you are reading this, you will be comfort in return to know that I will treasure your friendship even more.

In Deep Thoughts

2010-06-25T09:23:00.000-07:00

Seriously, unhappiness can be depressing. I am in deep thoughts for my next move and actions. To do or not to do. Friends who know me well say, "follow your heart. Jazz you are always the lady who go all the way out for your dreams, and things you want to do. Do it. "

I really thanks those who encourage me. But as this is a big issue, I will take it into deep considerations.

Hope the end results will not cause me a lifetime regrets.

The progress of my 2 boys

2010-06-23T08:37:00.000-07:00

Seeing them growing up day by day makes me feel comforted. Noel being the eldest, is sometimes naughty and sometimes nice. It is hard to teach him sometimes as he is kinda stubborn and rebelious.

Still I believe nothing is impossible. I will try my best paitience on him, fingers crossed that I will not blow my top.

As for Zachary, well, he is 1 year old now. A very active baby and yes bad tempered one too. I believe he got that temper from me. (lol) He crawls real fast and cries real loud. Though still learning to walk, it seems like he can run especially when he sees me back from work. He is practically close to me and will want me to carry him. Though tired, I tried my best to hug him, but I would rather focus more on my time with Jeff.

I feel that I have neglected my Jeff as work toll me down and handling 2 boys is a chore to me.

Jeff, if you are reading this, I want to tell you, I love you very much. Sorry if I have not been at your side all the time. Thank you for being there for me when I need you the most and thank you for being so supportive to my work. Thank you for being my best friend and great listener and comforter. I love you.

Some pictures to share.

My baby is all grown up

2010-06-21T00:56:00.000-07:00

Time flies, from a infant to a 1 year old active baby. Zach is all grown up. He just celebrated his birthday. I sincerely thank all friends and relatives who are generous with his gifts and red packets.

I am happy to see all enjoying the food that I took great effort to cook. It is always a pleasure to see people enjoying food that I made.

I thank Jeff for his support and help during his Prince's birthday. Zach didn't know what is going on, but he is sure happy to see new toys.

The rain spoilt our 2nd half of the BBQ, still everyone leaves happily. Some picts to share.

My phone lost

2010-06-18T04:02:00.001-07:00

I am very sad. It is just not my day. I have lost the most sentimental value phone that Jeff gave me. I am now very upset. Likewise, Jeff is disappointed. I am searching very fractically for it. Pray someone kind enough picked it up and return to me.

Counting down to Zachary 1st birthday

2010-06-14T08:59:00.001-07:00

Time really passes, my 2nd prince Zachary is turning 1 in a few days time. Looking forward to see him happily enjoy his day. Jeff and I will be getting ready all the nice food and the party ready. Hope to share more picts soon

Bad work mates Vs Good work mates

2010-06-14T08:46:00.000-07:00

I am very unhappy with some work mates whom I think are petty and damn ungracious. It is all these people that makes a working environment unhappy. Ungracious causes people to act childish, bad attitude and unkind.

Right now I am deciding to change a better work envoirnment whom I can don't get to work with locals. Working with expats are much more fun and better. Well, I hope my bank home loan will be able to approve before I move on to something better.

I am happy that I have a small group of work mates that are so helpful that they sacrifice their after office hours time to come back to help me. Seriously these are the few that makes up my day and makes me fell comforted.

I thank Grace, Elaine, Rozi and Rene for their kindness, understanding, and helpfulness during my past few months. Gals, if you read this blog, sincerely I thank you all.

2 more days

2010-06-07T10:31:00.001-07:00

2 more day will be my 32 birthday. Yes, I have live 32 years on Earth. Sometimes, I ask myself, what have I done in my 32 years of my life. I have acomplished being a wife, a mother to 2 kids and a filial daughter to my parents.

My life live plainly and contented. Yes at times, I am not so saint. I am bad sometimes, my birthday wish is not for myself. But for all in the world to be happy and contented.

My boys when you read what I have written the next time, remember my wish to you all. Be happy and be contented. Love one another.

Working relationship.

2010-06-07T10:24:00.000-07:00

I am a person who speaks my mind. I never have to think what i need to speak. It just all comes straight from my heart. Well, my character often offended people, of course sometimes it brings me friends. Friends who appreciate my straight forwardness.

But it came to my understanding that not all accept the way I am. Hey!! This is human nature. We talk or act unknowingly sometimes.

Recently, I have been so busy and so vexed that I am in my own cabin and never bother people around me.

I have been telling myself to cool off and be nice. But it didnt. So I guess I have to work well in buling a working relationship.

Finally I am settled down.

2010-06-03T09:59:00.000-07:00

Yes!! It has all be done and decisions are made. I am fully settled down in my company finally. I am now part of the big family in the company. I hope my decisions will bring me the path to my next level.

I am upset though, my new found friend who is also my boss is leaving the company soon. He is my great mentor who never looks down on me and been coaching me all the things I need to learn. In return I gave my all to learn and not disappoint him. Although somethimes, mistakes are made.

Still, I enjoy working with him. I guess we share the same interest. Animals and some other daily topics that made me hit it right off with him.

I can say he is so far the youngest and nicest boss I have work with.

Well, work load seems a little overloaded, staying late as usual. Guess I am all used to it now.

So I hope to work with the next new boss well and hope he will be a likable person.

Feeling greatful and comforted

2010-05-29T08:55:00.000-07:00

I am feeling greatful for God has bless greatly upon me & family. Despite the ocurring episodes of everyone getting sick, He has bless my boy Noel with a gift which Jeff and I had discovered.

Noel can do mental calculations faster than anyone. But we need to train him well as he is conceited in himself so much that he did not even do his workings correctly in his school exams.

Although he score average for his mid term, I am comforted to know he done his best. But there is one thing I am greatly disappointed in Noel is his constant misbehavior.

I hope he wil change for the better. Pls pray for him that we put him into the Lord's hand and entrust Noel to HIM. Thanks everyone for reading this

All's well end well.

2010-05-29T08:34:00.000-07:00

Finally, I manage to get a big break after all the episodes in the household. I cannot imagine the whole month of May, everyone in the family is sick.

I am the 1st one who gets sick. Bad flu and cough. Next Noel's turn and 3rd is Zachary's.

Zachary has a high fever and bad cough. I cannot imagine for the 2 weeks he did not sleep well at all. Jeff and I have been sleepless nites taking turn to take care of him. He crys every single nite and gosh!!! It is like crazy month of May for me.

Next one to fall sick is our maid, Siti. She started coughing and for 2-3 weeks she been coughing badly until recently she got well. Last one to fall sick is Jeff. He is still coughing hard now and had bad nights sleeping as well.

I guess our family doctor is happy as he got a fat salary pay from me for the month of May. (LOL)

All's well ends well, except for Jeff who is still coughing hard. Some picts I am putting up really sores my heart to see my children and husband to fall sick.

Tiredness and decisions

2010-05-13T18:33:00.000-07:00

I have some important decisions to make which really takes up alot of my time. Baby Zach is wearing me out too as he is not really wanting to sleep at night. Jeff and I has been so tired out lately.

Decisions to make and a baby who doesnt want to sleep well.

I hope I can have a chance to rest well before any conclusions made.

A very active baby who does not sleep at night

2010-04-26T07:58:00.000-07:00

Zachary is a very active baby. Past few nights, he has been waking up from 3.30am and last till morning. I am so tired. Jeff's temper is running short because of this. Sigh!!! Notty baby. Making his parents and big brother surrendering to him.

Big brother Noel's sleep has been disturb as well. Poor Noel been sleeping less and starts to dislike his little brother. But through constant persuation, he is tolerant. Well, to appease both brothers, weekends treat to Mac Donalds breakfast seems to work.

I am glad to see a smile on their face. To me, it's another mission accomplished.

Some Time together

2010-04-14T09:25:00.001-07:00

Hardly we have time together. Last Friday, I had a wonderful night with Jeff. It has been ages since we last pubbing. I treasure it very much and really am happy with the time spent. Hope a pict shows all of my feelings.

Pain is unbearable

2010-03-13T22:18:00.000-08:00

I really dont know. Pain is unbearable. Prescription given and it doesnt help much to reduce the pain. I cant relate much to Jeff my pain. Inner thoughts which I long to tell him. I really dont know what to do. How to start a conversation, how to share with him his inner thoughts and my inner thoughts.

I maybe on the negative thoughts and I really cant think positive now. It is really distressing to bear with the pain and medications.

Prayers from friends has been keep on coming. Thanks friends for the care and prayers. Love you lots.

2 weeks and counting

2010-03-13T22:14:00.000-08:00

It has been 2 weeks now in my new job. I am settling down well. Yes I need alots of guidance and been running up and down whenever mistakes are made.

Well I do need a few more weeks to get it fully hands on. I quite like my 2 bosses. Both are friendly and kind.

Both are giving me their best advise and guidance. Teaching me in anyway I need to know.

I appreciate and thank God to have given me 2 great bosses. I hope to work long in this new company and give my best performance.

Wish me luck.

1st day at work

2010-03-01T07:47:00.000-08:00

Today is a special day for me. It is my 1st day at work. It is a new experience for me. Throughout my years of work life, this is a new exposure for me in a Legal Firm. I am very lucky as it is always what I wanted to learn from.

Though it seems scary and my confidence level are low, I believe that I can overcome all difficulties and manage it well.

I hope it will be a new horizon for me to explore and hope to learn something new everyday.

I strongly believe God is always with me and guides me in everything I do. Will update more on my new job.

A Picture says a thousand words

2010-02-24T10:23:00.000-08:00

My motivatiion, my life, my love, my energy, my will, my key, my gifts from God.

New job and new beginning

2010-02-24T10:08:00.000-08:00

I am very happy. After 2 months of rest and out of job for 2 months, God has bless me with a good job. It came quite suddenly after the Chinese New Year holidays. I can see that things are turning good for me.

A great new job and a new beginning for the new year. New plans are in the midst of planning.

Holidays planning for Noel coming school holidays. Birthday Bash for Zachary 1st birthday and birthday bash for Noel and Jeff's birthday. One by one all is lining up.

Time flies real fast and Zachary is 8 months old now. 4 more months to go before he turns 1.

Seeing him grow and learning new things everyday makes me comforted and happy. Knowing God is looking after all our needs and blessing the 2 kids greatly.

Jeff is working hard too. I believe he has new plans for the year 2010. Plans for the family. I hope I will still be able to fork out time for my family even after I started on my new job.

I pray that God will be able to give me more time to spend on the guys so that I can still bake and cook for them.

Will update more on my new job soon.

Retribution

2010-02-24T09:55:00.000-08:00

People been asking me about this and wants me to point out my opinions. Well all I can say is yes I believe in retribution.

Recently I came to know a lady whom I do not really like. She likes to bad mouth about others life and gossips about others personal stuffs. She also likes to post bad comments on others. Well, I can say I was used to be a topic of one of her gossips and bad mouth.

Retribution came for her. I need not say more as I believe that God has given me justice done. This lady has her retribution on her new born baby. When friends came to tell me about her new born, I feel justified.

This is what I called karma or retribution. Parents do wrong and their kids takes the blame and punishment.

That is why I always try my best to teach my boys the best manners, and behavior. Teach them the right things and follow God's ways listed in the bible.

Jeff and I always try to do our best in good deeds that we can do. Help whoever that needs help.

I may not be a perfect wonderful rich lady, but I do what I can within my means.

I feel very blessed that God has given me a wonderful husband and 2 beautiful kids. What else can I ask for? They are priceless and all the money in this world can't buy them.

I have give thanks and praise too Lord for his wonderful blessings. I hope all my friends reading my blog will feel the same way too. Be thankful and do any good deeds you can think of. Look and see the surroundings. You are bless in one way or the other.

13th Wedding Anniversary

2010-01-25T08:38:00.001-08:00

It seems like yesterday that we just know each other and set out life path together. Wednesday 27th January is our 13th year wedding anniversary. Time flies and we have 2 beautiful kids and has walked 13 years of ups and down together.

How many more years we can go? It all comes from God's blessing. I do hope we can spend year after year anniversary together.

I have plan some surprises for him. Hope he will like it. Will share the surprise gift picts to all.

Keeping Zach busy and happy

2010-01-25T08:33:00.000-08:00

Zachary is a very active baby. He tires me out easily. We have to think of new ways to keep him occupied and happy. So when I am not around, Jeff has thought of putting him in a laundry basket. He loves it very much. Just to share....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RIBJGxXgR6g

A time well spent

2010-01-19T07:06:00.000-08:00

Jeff was sweet. He brought us to Singapore Bird Park to see the Hollywood dinosaur theme. It was a time well spent. Noel enjoyed it most and Zachary sleep throughout the expedition.

I am very happy and it was a memorable time for me.

My darling Sparkle

2010-01-07T09:07:00.000-08:00

Sparkle my dearie bully is sick. She been loosing weight though she is eating normal. Vet checked and everything is normal. Nothing wrong with her. Hope she will put on some weight and pray for her speedy recovery.

Words cant describe this Pict

2010-01-07T09:04:00.000-08:00

As mentioned, I am happy to to know that they are with me all the time.

Noel and Zach are close.

2010-01-07T08:56:00.000-08:00

I love to see my 2 princes around and they have been playing well. Its fun to see them laugh and play. Though Noel has started school, he still try his best to amuse his little brother. Zach is fast in his movements now, turning and walking around with the help of the walker.

I feel comforted to see them with their happy faces. Sharing some oof my happy princes pictures.

X'mas and New Year

2009-12-30T06:07:00.000-08:00

Happy holidays friends. Dr Siow has told me to monitor the situiation. So far now am being put on medication.

I am having a happy time with Jeff and the 2 princes. I have cooked for them for X'mas and brought them out to Orchard Road. They enjoyed it so much.

Time flies and Noel is going back to school on the 4th January 2010. He is lucky that he is being accepted by a new school.

Hope he will like his new school and new friends.

Recuperating after surgery

2009-12-13T03:34:00.000-08:00

After 1 week of my surgery, I am doing fine. Lots of friends been giving me the support and well wishes. I thank them sincerely.

Though I am still in pain, I have been out for job hunt and taking Noel and Zach out for walks and shopping trip. Since its the school holidays, Noel is happy to see me at home and bringing him out. I have grown close to Zach. I hope this will keep him close to me than to the maid.

Next week is the review. Hope Dr. Siow will give me some good news. Fingers cross and prayers.

Will keep all updated.

Preparing my surgery

2009-12-01T23:38:00.000-08:00

I am nervous and worried. Friday is near. My surgery is to be held on Friday. Jeff has given me all the emotional support I need and he really love me alot.

He told me that it is alright and we can adopt a baby girl if I really wanted one. But that will have to wait till Zach is older. As he is a handful.

Jeff is contented with 2 boys. He ever told me, he is happy with me bearing his 2 princes and he does not want me to go through the pain again.

I love you Jeff. Will pull through for the sake of you and the kids. I trust the Lord and Dr Siow.

Zach can sit in his walker.

2009-12-01T23:32:00.000-08:00

Times flies. Zach is 5 months old. He starts gargling his baby language. Draws your attention. It only seems like yesterday I gave birth to him. @ weeks time he will be 6 months old.

He likes to look for Jeff and Noel rather than me. I guess, I am seldom at home. Due to long hours working, Zach do not even have a chance to be carried by me.

I feel so guilty as I did not really have a chance to accompany him on his growing up years.

I love you baby, Mummy have to work hard for you and Noel to have a better life. Bear with mummy.

Flu bug attack

2009-11-19T07:33:00.000-08:00

I am having a bad flu for coming 2 weeks now. It is with no choice that I have to take medical leave and rest at home. Now Jeff is sneezing and Zach is running a fever after the 2nd dose of vaccination. Noel is having his school holidays now and he has been a good boy. Looking after Zach and helping around the house. I can see my little boy all grown up and is trying very hard to do his part as a big brother.

I am planning to do something for Noel and hope he will enjoy his school holidays even when we are not travelling.

Sparkle is sick

2009-11-07T05:23:00.000-08:00

Sparkle my precioius bull terrier is sick. For a few days, she has been vommiting and diarrheoa. Finally today she starts to get better. Am monitoring her sitiuation and hope things will get well soon for her.

I love her so much that it will hurt me if she were to pass on. Let's pray for her.

Date is set.

2009-11-07T05:13:00.000-08:00

I have seen Dr Seow on Monday. Results are not good and the date has been set for the surgery.

I am all ready for the surgery. Just that it is really a life regret for not having a baby girl with Jeff. I always wanted a little princess for Jeff. But he said that 2boys are a blessing for him. He does not wish to see me going through bad morning sickness again.

I hope the surgery will be a success and I trust my doctor so much. Things will be better. I know. God is always with me and He has been looking after me all these times.

My wishes fulfilled.

2009-11-01T19:59:00.000-08:00

Though the family photo shoot is way below my expectation, I still want to share it with all. Hopefully the next one that I have planned will be much better. I still prefer Bright Studio whereby Boon Siong, our wedding photographer took the best shots. He is capable to make Jeff smile.

Really am looking forward to it soon.

Tired easily

2009-10-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

My body is still in a weak state. Been getting very tired easily. I feel so guilty to have ask Jeff and our helper Siti to take care of baby Zach and Noel while I sleep. Seems irresponsible of me. But Jeff is so sweet and has not even complaint a single word. He change diapers, feed Zach round the clock over the week end while I was resting. My new job is fine so far, just that I cant get used to working 51/2 days. Its has been real tiring for me.

I am seeing Dr. Seow this coming Monday, hope there will be some good news and results from him. Friends reading my blog, do say a little prayer for me. God bless.

Waking down memory lane.

2009-10-22T10:26:00.001-07:00

Seeing the picts, made me wants to turn back the clock.

Bad news

2009-10-22T10:21:00.000-07:00

Life is really unpredictable. You will never know what will happen to you the next. I am still in shocked on what has happen to me. Jeff seems strong and is emotionless about it.

But deep down, I really dont know how he feels. I really hope he can open up and tell me what he thinks and how he feels about it.

I do hope he can give me the emotion support I need. His comfort and need him to tell me he will be here for me no matter what.

But he is a man of a few words so I really cant catch his mind. Teach me. How to be a better wife to him.

Oh dear!

2009-10-19T22:12:00.000-07:00

The weather is very hot and humid for the past few weeks. I have just recovered from a bad flu and now it's Jeff's turn to get the bug. I feel so guilty passing the flu bug to him. Last night, I have bought flu tablets and some herbal tea to cook. Hopefully it will do the trick for him since it has done the trick for me.

Next is to make sure that the bugs are not going to our precious princes. Else, it will be a sleepless week for us.

I hope the weather will turn cool as the year end is drawing near. Ususally this time, I can expect rainy and windy day. Let's hope it does rain.

Can't smile without you

2009-10-13T03:05:00.000-07:00

Indeed, this song really means alot and it has spoken up my feelings for this family I have set up.

Without seeing them smile, I really cant do anything. A smile means alot to me as that will push me further to work hard just for them. Of course, at least a smile tells me that they are happy and contented.

For us, life is simple and no pursue of much materialistic stuffs. So long we have each other and stay together as a family, nothing else matters.

Another brand new blessing.

2009-10-08T19:27:00.000-07:00

Today is another brand new day for me. Full of blessing and hope. Am in the office late. Over slept and am tired easily nowadays. This is due to medication I am taking. Before I left for work, seeing my king and 2 princes sleeping soundly, I each gave them a peck on the face and left home.

They are my motivation to push me go through every pain I face.

When I think back on how my 2 princes come about, I just thank and praise God for the wonderful gift he sent me.

Noel and Zachary are my precious gifts I have ever receive from God. They are everything to me and Jeff. Sometimes, I was thinking, my duty as a wife has been accomplished by giving Jeff 2 adorable kids. But, no. It did not just end here, I still have to be a good mother and continue to be the loving wife for Jeff.

I can see that he love 3 of us though he is a man of a few words. I am sharing my 2 princes picts with you. Who I can say I am very proud of.

Our journey started.

2009-10-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

After 8 months of dating, I say "Yes" to him. Why so fast? Well, I love him more than I love my life. I want to give him the best I can give for him.

I do not mind the hardships, so long we stick through thick and thin together. Never to part.

12 years ago, we made a pact. Till death do us part. I am still keeping this promise. I really hope God can give me more time. More time to spend precious time together and with our 2 beautiful kids we have together. Life is like a roller coaster ride for the past 12 years. We stick it through and survive this far.

Am still counting my blessings to be with him. A day together is a big blessing for me. I want him to know that my love for him will never change. I love you Jeff so much that nothing can change my love you.

How it started?

2009-10-08T08:38:00.000-07:00

Fate and love is a funny thing. When the right one comes along, you can never escape Cupid's arrow of love.

Alot of friends ask "how it started"??

Answer: 1 wrong phone call.

Yes, it is. I made a wrong phone call. Supposed to look for an agent, ended, I called him. Who is he? Well, the love of my life. Jeffrey Chua.

Oops!! Sorry wrong number I say. But he call me back. Yes he did. That action has sealed my life with him.

It's a funny thing. From then on, we spent many happy times together. Of course, 8 months into the relationship, we are married. Together we share our ups and downs.

Read on everyday, as I share with you my life with Jeff.