In Deep Thoughts

Seriously, unhappiness can be depressing. I am in deep thoughts for my next move and actions. To do or not to do. Friends who know me well say, "follow your heart. Jazz you are always the lady who go all the way out for your dreams, and things you want to do. Do it. "

I really thanks those who encourage me. But as this is a big issue, I will take it into deep considerations.

Hope the end results will not cause me a lifetime regrets.

The progress of my 2 boys

Seeing them growing up day by day makes me feel comforted. Noel being the eldest, is sometimes naughty and sometimes nice. It is hard to teach him sometimes as he is kinda stubborn and rebelious.

Still I believe nothing is impossible. I will try my best paitience on him, fingers crossed that I will not blow my top.

As for Zachary, well, he is 1 year old now. A very active baby and yes bad tempered one too. I believe he got that temper from me. (lol) He crawls real fast and cries real loud. Though still learning to walk, it seems like he can run especially when he sees me back from work. He is practically close to me and will want me to carry him. Though tired, I tried my best to hug him, but I would rather focus more on my time with Jeff.

I feel that I have neglected my Jeff as work toll me down and handling 2 boys is a chore to me.

Jeff, if you are reading this, I want to tell you, I love you very much. Sorry if I have not been at your side all the time. Thank you for being there for me when I need you the most and thank you for being so supportive to my work. Thank you for being my best friend and great listener and comforter. I love you.

Some pictures to share.

My baby is all grown up

Time flies, from a infant to a 1 year old active baby. Zach is all grown up. He just celebrated his birthday. I sincerely thank all friends and relatives who are generous with his gifts and red packets.

I am happy to see all enjoying the food that I took great effort to cook. It is always a pleasure to see people enjoying food that I made.

I thank Jeff for his support and help during his Prince's birthday. Zach didn't know what is going on, but he is sure happy to see new toys.

The rain spoilt our 2nd half of the BBQ, still everyone leaves happily. Some picts to share.

My phone lost

I am very sad. It is just not my day. I have lost the most sentimental value phone that Jeff gave me. I am now very upset. Likewise, Jeff is disappointed. I am searching very fractically for it. Pray someone kind enough picked it up and return to me.

Counting down to Zachary 1st birthday

Time really passes, my 2nd prince Zachary is turning 1 in a few days time. Looking forward to see him happily enjoy his day. Jeff and I will be getting ready all the nice food and the party ready. Hope to share more picts soon

Bad work mates Vs Good work mates

I am very unhappy with some work mates whom I think are petty and damn ungracious. It is all these people that makes a working environment unhappy. Ungracious causes people to act childish, bad attitude and unkind.

Right now I am deciding to change a better work envoirnment whom I can don't get to work with locals. Working with expats are much more fun and better. Well, I hope my bank home loan will be able to approve before I move on to something better.

I am happy that I have a small group of work mates that are so helpful that they sacrifice their after office hours time to come back to help me. Seriously these are the few that makes up my day and makes me fell comforted.

I thank Grace, Elaine, Rozi and Rene for their kindness, understanding, and helpfulness during my past few months. Gals, if you read this blog, sincerely I thank you all.

2 more days

2 more day will be my 32 birthday. Yes, I have live 32 years on Earth. Sometimes, I ask myself, what have I done in my 32 years of my life. I have acomplished being a wife, a mother to 2 kids and a filial daughter to my parents.

My life live plainly and contented. Yes at times, I am not so saint. I am bad sometimes, my birthday wish is not for myself. But for all in the world to be happy and contented.

My boys when you read what I have written the next time, remember my wish to you all. Be happy and be contented. Love one another.

Working relationship.

I am a person who speaks my mind. I never have to think what i need to speak. It just all comes straight from my heart. Well, my character often offended people, of course sometimes it brings me friends. Friends who appreciate my straight forwardness.

But it came to my understanding that not all accept the way I am. Hey!! This is human nature. We talk or act unknowingly sometimes.


Recently, I have been so busy and so vexed that I am in my own cabin and never bother people around me.

I have been telling myself to cool off and be nice. But it didnt. So I guess I have to work well in buling a working relationship.

Finally I am settled down.

Yes!! It has all be done and decisions are made. I am fully settled down in my company finally. I am now part of the big family in the company. I hope my decisions will bring me the path to my next level.

I am upset though, my new found friend who is also my boss is leaving the company soon. He is my great mentor who never looks down on me and been coaching me all the things I need to learn. In return I gave my all to learn and not disappoint him. Although somethimes, mistakes are made.

Still, I enjoy working with him. I guess we share the same interest. Animals and some other daily topics that made me hit it right off with him.

I can say he is so far the youngest and nicest boss I have work with.

Well, work load seems a little overloaded, staying late as usual. Guess I am all used to it now.

So I hope to work with the next new boss well and hope he will be a likable person.