Christmas is coming, but this year, it is not for me to enjoy and celebrate. So many plans are put off due to moving, heavy work loads. I am so tired. Even the thought of baking a Christmas fruit cake, is not workable.
Tensions in the office are there still and mood is never a happy day at all. I am simply moodless about everything, throwing my temper at the boys at time when I reach home from work at times.
My screaming and shouting at them made me guilty when I see them sleeping.
My boys, mummy is sorry and never meant anything to scold you or beat you. My Noel, mummy love you and Zachary. Mummy dont want to scold you all but hope you 2 will be good when I am home.
